Never been so hurt

6.May.2009(On a Wednesday)
12.20am 5 May night

A tiff.

We had a tiff today, until i just want to jump off a cliff man. I was feeling so down since yesterday because my grandma was hospitalised and i had to work full shift. Dear sms-ed me telling me that he'll be coming over to drive me after work. He knows i'm tired, depressed and needs someone to be there, though i never tell him. And it's all the things he have done for me, i wanna say a big "THANK YOU" to him. We went to Chomp Chomp for dinner as i was craving for the carrot cake so badly. When we were in the car, dear was telling me what happens if the store wasn't open. I told him that wont happened as i went so many times, the store is always open. And seriously buy 4D also not so zhun. The store is really not open. DAMN! We headed home after that and i told him that i was going to visit my grandma the next day, but i'm not sure about that as the hospital only allows 1 visitor per day and i will buy him lunch and reach about 12pm at his house. But when i woke up and all, my sister was telling me that the visiting hour is from 12pm-2pm only. And they only allow 1 visitor per day. So i went to sms hubs that i will be at his house at around 2 plus. He replied saying that It's ok he will settle his own lunch and asked me to stay with my grandma as she needs me. But thru his sms, i know he's not feeling good and all. I kept sms him and ask if he's ok, he told me he is. But later part when i was about to leave the house to the hospital, my father called and told me that my uncle is there already so i can't visit grandma for today. I immediately sms-ed him and told him i cant visit grandma already and told him i wanted to buy lunch for him. And he told me to stay at home and drink more water don't go out etc. OBVIOUSLY there is something wrong already as he sound so disappointed and monotone on phone. But in the end in the evening, i managed to visit grandma and i came home calling hubs. In the midst of the conversation, he started to get cranky again and i told him i wanted to hit the sack already and asked him to go do his own things. As i seriously dont want to pick a fight with him. In the end, he reason things out with me saying that he cooked lunch for me, but i was so last min that he ended pouring away the food away. I was really sorry for that and i apologised to him in the afternoon. But things start to get sour again when i called him so that explains him reasoning to me, crying and all. And to hear him cry on the phone is the last thing i ever wanted to do in life. I cried secretly with him as i really dont want to pick a fight with him in the 1st place. And i chose to run away. But i'm glad he's there to reason things out with me. I even joked that if he continues to shoot me at everything i say, i might have to go to shaolin to learn martial arts to battle with him. Not to worry, we're still as loving.

p/s: I love you dear. Thanks for everything. Except for the "DA DAO LI"